cold sweats

October 13, 2012 at 11:58pm

 

another day without you, i keep on living this curse,

waking up without you or knowing your gone, i dont know whats worse?

I try to keep going, force a smile as a tear rolls my cheek,

try to talk to you, cant speak the words, Im too weak,

how do I know your listening, how do I know you are there?

can u please just show me something, around my room I stare,

nothing moves, no sounds, I close my eyes and I can see

your big beautiful smile staring back at me,

but when they are open you are nowhere to be found

so I keep on searching and praying as the clock ticks round,

my headache pounds, waking up in cold sweats

wodering if anyone else knows that I've lost it yet,

crying so hard, its all snot and spit

broken pieces of my heart's puzzle just wont seem to fit,

I pray to a higher power and as him for the strength

I am told to be humble and serve, not falter, go any lengths,

I am told that Tyler is safe and happy, all day he plays

I am told he awaits for me, I will see him one sunny day,

on the otherside of a rainbow, in the mist of the morning dew

in every breeze of wind, and everything I go through,

he is right next to me, watching me with pride

so he is the reason that I take all this pain, bottle it and try to hide,

the fact of the matter is , life without him is pure pain

the ONLY cure, is being with my Tyler again.. 

 

I love you son!

`daddy